What Crushes the Crush?

Teenagers adolescence depression obsession and crushes…..
Alright so you don't need to be a teenager to have a crush. Why do we have crushes in the first place or have we been to busy thinking about that certain someone :3. Anyhow, feelings crush down your heart and make it nearly impossible to think clearly or behave yourself around that person.

One will do anything to stop that crush from crushing their heart so they might fall in denial. Reject the brewing feelings of attraction. Prevent it from bursting out, cracking the delusion by making yourself believe that you hate that person. So when your blood gets hot around that person you blame it on hatred rather than affection.

After the hostility phase comes depression. The obsession is suffocating them. Its too hard to accept truth but deep down inside we know its true. Its way easier just to sweep it under the carpet and forget it like dust but negligence builds up eventually until the mind is thrown into tremulous chaos. Acceptance comes stealing back to her throne authoritatively. Action must be taken at once, military style.

Clearance, thats all we need. There is a compelling need to act on the emotions either confess the love or bury the feelings for good and i mean for good. This is usually the part where a friend is taken into confidence who usually spills the beans after swearing not to. Can't be helped: it its human nature. Now one thing is for sure rejection almost immediately crushes the crush like Godzillla stomping on a plastic empty bottle.Secretive feelings eventually disintegrate into dust where they are blown away by the wind still existing yet so minuscule and insignificant that it is as if they never existed in the first place.

Moving on, very rarely does confessing a crush lead to a long lasting relationship till death which is commonly referred to as marriage therefore i believe that taking a crush seriously is foolish instead since  
crushing is God's will we should take the opportunity to study ourselves and question why'd we fall for that douche bag in the first place.

Who needs IQs anyway?

Many claims have been made that people with a higher IQ than normal are logically smarter than others. I'm not totally against IQ tests but your score doesn't limit what you do. I mean i know some people with an IQ of 160 (so they claim) but they don't seem any more 'evolutionized' than the rest of us average 140s. Most of of us don't even have the patience to even solve one of those so called IQ tests seriously.

One does not simply put forward a baseless opinion. I have taken a number of factors from reality and fiction and that is why i undermine the very word IQ. Lets look at some famous people. Einstein-the total genius who put forward a lot of theories in physics especially relativity but in grade school he was failing yet some scientists claim he had an IQ of 160. This isn't consistent with his barely passing grades at school so there are two ways to look at it:

Either the scientists were right and his IQ suddenly increased when his brain should've stopped growing or the scientists are incorrect and Einstein simply took an interest on how things work therefore he spent a lot of time working dedicatedly on physics as Nikola Tesla did before his lab was burnt down by one of his ex-co-workers but thats beside the point. Back to Einstein, so dedication, a different perspective and probability being on your side are all your buddies to fame.

Now lets look at someone we all know in the theatre: Tom Hanks well not him but Forrest Gump. He's a fictitious character but theres a lot of truth weaved into his fictitious life. Firstly, he has a low I Q so he was 'slower' than other kids his age mentally which should be sound with the IQ smarter claim. Surprisingly his low IQ or should i say the fact that he never lets someone tell him he can't do something mades him very and i mean very successful not only financially but also in friendship and love.

Thats why i deem IQ tests as baseless. You might not agree with me seeing the limited amount of proof i used to back my opinion but look around you: you'll toss aside IQ like it never existed once you compare your boss to yourself or better yet a barber. Just draw the comparisons and you won't need my word for it. No can put a number on Inteligence.

Excitement!!

 You know that feeling when you're psychologically jumping up and down with impatience as you maintain a casual demeanor? It's a feeling that cannot be simply said with one word. It can be felt pulsating through the arteries form within like adrenaline only indescribable. It's like sheer happiness…

Kinda sad that though we all carry an empathic side, we still cannot fully explain how we feel. We use mundane terms like happiness which conveys very little of what's actually felt. It's like an insult or understatement of those feelings throbbing within. When one is feeing down for no reason the they call it depression. It's ridiculous, i mean just think about it. The feeling of sadness can be categorized into countless of sects, depression just being a small percentage.

You know why our description of emotions seems so limited? It's because people just don't express themselves anymore as much as they used to. Also people don't want to listen anymore. Look at the world around you: its a big race. Can one think of or do anything else when running the race? Time is rushed. What happened to the days when one could sit for hours in silence just contemplating and thinking. Words were chosen carefully to extract specific meanings. You know why Literature class is one of the most boring classes today? It needs time to understand the shades of essence the poet has carefully weaved into a single puzzle. All good puzzles take a while to solve and there are countless ways to solve it.

The wonderful history books full of battles and bloodshed should logically appeal to today's generation as their craving for violence increases. What are they doing instead? Going for the video game that was never a reality. I don't know about you but i'd much rather read history and leave it up to my imagination to replay the Holocaust in my mind rather than not understanding the debt of murder, betrayal, genocide, and the countless sins that the monsters which ruled and rule committed and commit. But forget about what i'm writing and go on surfing the web aimlessly, who would listen to a paranoid conspiracy theorist?

Bored……...

You know why things aren't continuous? Because if they were they would be receptive, expected. What you expect, you prepare for so their is no element of surprise. Thats how my life seems to be spinning or at least thats how i think of it. You know that feeling of lethargy or better ennui, where you just can't take no more so do absolutely nothing…..

The funny thing is i know nothing is gonna happen so i do nothing resulting in nothing new occurring. Call it a paradox if you will but it makes perfect sense to me. I guess thats how life is : you fall and get up. At first, we don't know how to get up. Often we take a while to get on our feet. Sometimes times we are too bored to get up because despite walking you fear their will be no pleasant scenery, only a dry endless wasteland. This analogy perfectly describes my predicament.

At times, i am verily grateful for all i have, so behave overly cheerful, social and kinda crazy. The sad thing is most of my time i waste brooding over past happier memories and forget what i have right in front of my eyes. Then by the time realization strikes my frontal lobe, there's a time warp, fast forward and a new uncomfortable background.

I openly state that i envy those that easily fit in and everyone dons their attention on. I'm not ashamed of it because that is something i'll never have or experience. Wherever i go i'm different, ever felt that way? Sometimes it's a language gap, differing interests, or just blunt racism. One thing is for sure: Childhood years are the best as nothing is more important to that innocent yet ignorant mind but to hurl the bag full of books at the foot of the stair case and scream "Mom i'm going out to play" before slamming the door shut running towards nowhere.

Just a thought….

Just a few weeks ago i was asked by my english teacher,"what are your plans after 10th grade" and i'm just like no idea. Surprisingly no one is sure about what to do about future decisions which aren't even for certain. Mostly everyone goes with the flow and if things go wrong they blame the flow or their decision to follow the flow. Then there are others who plan there lives to up to every single minute. 

What's funny is no one can be 100% confident that they'll live the next day yet we tend to never contemplate enough about death. I mean death happens to everyone so we might as well plan for it, right? The problem is that commonly people are absorbed completely by the good for nothing (except hoarding money) entertainment industry, jobs, family, children, wealth, rent, taxes, food, relationships and the list goes on.

This leaves less than half a day for our tired minds to even care about death and only wish for when it's convenient. Don't we realize that death hits everyone, there's no escape. There is absolutely no Nicholas Flemmel with his elixir of life. Before turning the page on 4000 killed in Bomb Blast, try to think about what the killed are going through and whether you would like that for yourself.

 Remember science barely touches the boundaries of where this so called 'soul' comes from so its about time you did some series soul searching. Never stop until you can confidently say, "Come to me Death even in my sleep and i'm ready". Remember death is the easy part, what comes next is the real challenge.

School a trap?

Today, society urges the next generation to get top marks, but what good will it do? To what extent will this endless maze help them?

When you’re at school only one thought keeps driving you forward which is “After I graduate from school, I can do whatever I want!” But that's not the case here because no matter how hard you study, you will have to take a job and that, my friend, is life long enslavement.

            

Where is the so-called wisdom our parents used to find in books?  Is it on a dusty library shelf with yellowing pages waiting to be taken out? Unfortunately, the wisdom of it has died away along with the writer.

            

What good is it to mug up physics when you wanted to become a politician? You see how schooling has wrecked young minds. All students want to do is get away from school!!! They only want to stay to hang out with friends.

            

No matter how you see it, written tests ensure nothing but theoretically the student can accomplish so and so but what good is that? Wouldn’t it be more affective to tackle them with the real deal!

           

This isn’t about whether I’m right or wrong. It matters that you form your own opinion in your head and head straight to it no matter no matter how many obstacles obscure your path. You’ve got it all you’ve just got to have faith in yourself so that the impossible can one day become reality. You will never accomplish something until you do it. Now that's logic and we all contain at least a dose of it, so use your complex sea of multi-polar neurons threatening to deteriorate under materialistic pressures.

           

See, I still have an English report pending which I’d rather not do. Instead of using my time to complete it I have written what you have just read now and I’d gladly write a whole book about it but now I must really go.

Hostlity

It really sucks when you suddenly become all hostile with all these barriers and seriousness. Especially when you push away the people that matter. Then you're misunderstood and no one wants to talk to you anymore. It's like you're pushed out and neglected although it was initially your fault.

I've come up with an exclamation to why this hostility contaminates healthy friendships. Sometimes, paranoia or a minority might say "good sense" takes control of your senses and breeds mistrust in even a friendly"hi". I also believe that one might have a premonition that their friendship might break on bad terms and so carry out the omen instinctively to cushion the blow.At times, it could be a sudden wake up call to the person and they break off all ties that inhibit their true nature.

Some say that it is only when the opposite gender approaches them that they go rigid and respond with short curt retorts. It may seem comical but it's pressurizing and the person might even regret the unintended harshness lets just blame on instinct. Thankfully, it doesn't work that way. Probably the person we hold as our respected example experienced childhood traumas. Never heard of incest, drunk husbands beating wives and single parents.

The point is, when we recognize such a case we should give them a second chance. Don't use this as an      
excuse to pursue someone who actually hates you not your gender. The world needs to learn to talk it out. Insult, pull each others hair and have fist fights but don't keep it in. Scream it out. Don't wait until you erupt like a tempest in a teapot or something of that sort at the most unexpected moments or a slight trigger.